Since the past few weeks/months, I have been turning into a narcissist. All the time I'm pretty much occupied with thoughts meandering around myself. MY machine, MY code, MY paper, MY research, MY homework, MY assignments, MY projects, MY exams. The list further extends to MY education, MY degree, MY career, MY bank balance, MY job placement, MY visa status, MY travel, MY ideas of fun, MY photography etc.
Beyond this, I am not able to delete the thoughts that come to me sometimes: MY looks, MY shaadi, MY life, MY pleasures et al.
I'm struggling hard to wade away these thoughts. Silly thoughts. Somehow I think being selfish is ok, but being so bloody self obsessed is not! With no thoughts left for friends/family/acquaintances, I have stopped thinking beyond a certain vicious circle of MYself.
To outdo this, I turned to NJ for advice the other day. She is one of those people I can always fall upon for help in such psychological disorders :D
Eventually she advised me to "jup" Om Namah Shivay exactly 100k times a day. Well, after much persistence, to which she didn't pay any heed, I agreed to do the same. The next day was perfect. Ever since I took her advice, I realized that she is also a part of my thoughts now :P
All of a sudden, in the middle of the night, 03:02 AM, while enjoying MY Lemontini (Sprite+Lime Juice+Sugar cubes), I proposed the idea that we should watch a movie together (online). She was affirmative. Few clicks, followed by a series of the traditional copy-paste rituals we share uniquely, the movie began. "Jab We Met": to me this was too much of a give up. Unworthy of my priceless (free) time. And, to my dismay, NJ gave up in like 3 mins as well. But there was more to come. Instead, she wanted to watch Chicken Tikka Masala. Not that bad. I have faint memories of watching this movie on Mohit's recommendation long back. Couldn't recollect what it was about though. Didn't check imdb. Started watching the movie. Again, within like 40 seconds, she yells out - "Arre mujhe yaad aaya. Ye toh gay movie hai. I quit, abhi mujhe neend aa rahi hai!"
I suddenly realized that I had also watched this movie long long back in Gurgaon. And to my memory (later Harpreet confirmed), this wasn't too good of a movie to be viewed in absence of ample male companions who could come up with the most-utterly-disgusting-yet-apparently-funny-comments, when stranded at 3:13AM, especially when your generous professors have given you an awesome sh!tload of assignments and projects.
By Jove, I had never witnessed such a terrible disappointment. Oh MY MY...
Seems the winters have more games to play.
Bring it over, I shall say.
Finally, I have decided to continue with my self-love till I fall for someone! ;-)
Beyond this, I am not able to delete the thoughts that come to me sometimes: MY looks, MY shaadi, MY life, MY pleasures et al.
I'm struggling hard to wade away these thoughts. Silly thoughts. Somehow I think being selfish is ok, but being so bloody self obsessed is not! With no thoughts left for friends/family/acquaintances, I have stopped thinking beyond a certain vicious circle of MYself.
To outdo this, I turned to NJ for advice the other day. She is one of those people I can always fall upon for help in such psychological disorders :D
Eventually she advised me to "jup" Om Namah Shivay exactly 100k times a day. Well, after much persistence, to which she didn't pay any heed, I agreed to do the same. The next day was perfect. Ever since I took her advice, I realized that she is also a part of my thoughts now :P
All of a sudden, in the middle of the night, 03:02 AM, while enjoying MY Lemontini (Sprite+Lime Juice+Sugar cubes), I proposed the idea that we should watch a movie together (online). She was affirmative. Few clicks, followed by a series of the traditional copy-paste rituals we share uniquely, the movie began. "Jab We Met": to me this was too much of a give up. Unworthy of my priceless (free) time. And, to my dismay, NJ gave up in like 3 mins as well. But there was more to come. Instead, she wanted to watch Chicken Tikka Masala. Not that bad. I have faint memories of watching this movie on Mohit's recommendation long back. Couldn't recollect what it was about though. Didn't check imdb. Started watching the movie. Again, within like 40 seconds, she yells out - "Arre mujhe yaad aaya. Ye toh gay movie hai. I quit, abhi mujhe neend aa rahi hai!"
I suddenly realized that I had also watched this movie long long back in Gurgaon. And to my memory (later Harpreet confirmed), this wasn't too good of a movie to be viewed in absence of ample male companions who could come up with the most-utterly-disgusting-yet-apparently-funny-comments, when stranded at 3:13AM, especially when your generous professors have given you an awesome sh!tload of assignments and projects.
By Jove, I had never witnessed such a terrible disappointment. Oh MY MY...
Seems the winters have more games to play.
Bring it over, I shall say.
Finally, I have decided to continue with my self-love till I fall for someone! ;-)
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